Please forgive Mama; I have tried my best in loving you.

If Mama knew you would fall down and hurt yourself
That year when you were eight
Learning eagerly to play your favorite volley ball game
I would have warned you to watch out carefully
If I had, would you have forgiven me?
You brought it up when we fought the last time
But then again, pain is part of growing up

If Mama knew you would suffer from bulimia
That year when you were fifteen
Competing among other girls with pencil like figures
I would have kept you away from such deadly influence
If I had, would you have forgiven me?
You kept blaming me when I nurse you back to health
But then again, you chose not to listen to Mama’s advice

If Mama knew you would be hurt by your puppy love
That year when you were eighteen
Sneaking out at night to meet your prince charming
I would have told him to leave you completely
If I had, would you have forgiven me?
You told the whole neighborhood that I caused the break up
But then again, he cheated on you and left

If Mama knew you would be gone so soon to pursue your dreams
That year when you were twenty one
Soaring high above other medical students
I would have spent more time with you
If I had, would you have forgiven me?
You told me that I have never been there for you always
But then again, I had to work to keep sending you tuition fees

If Mama knew you would get married in a foreign land
That year when you were twenty eight
Exchanging vows in the presence of your friends
I would have save up and buy myself a ticket to attend your wedding
If I had, would you have forgiven me?
You seem angry and disappointed with me
But then again, I was never informed until the day I was terminally ill

If Mama knew you would not come back to see me
That year when you were thirty
I wonder if I will ever see you again
I would have left you a note
If I had, will you keep it for last?
Please forgive Mama; I have tried my best in loving you.